GeNie In A Bottle

Lalalalalalalala...

2008-01-14T19:16:00.000-08:00

Its tht tym of the sem again. Wher im rushing to complete those bloody proj works!! There's GD proj, Vb proj, IAD proj AND TONNES OF REVISION TO DO!!! Oh god. Mein kya karu..
I oso got work and dance. It jus isnt easy. Im pretty sure someone reads this blog although they claim they dont. Rite Manesh Im not a fool!! But its my blog and i wanna say wat i wanna say.. I WISH VANDHANA JUS DIES!!! Bitch.. I wished she din tell me abt this whole dance thingy. Im stuck in it. There's no escape. I cant even scream cos this world is too small. Bitch jus abandoned me n hid behind her mom. WAT A BIATCH!! Sorry Vinnu i cant bring myself to liking u this lifetym.

Haiz..i wish i cld scream. Its way beta den crying silently in my bed and end up with a headache the nxt day.I realized wher my mistakes were n im mending it. A lil too late but eventually i haf opened my eyes to the mass options in life.All i gotta rmb is to be true to myself.Know wat i want and love wat i got. Im not gonna try for manesh anymore. I guess he is realising too.
Considering he notice my absence on msn. For a while i was happy tht he missed me. But leopards cant change their spots overnight ryt? He picked me frm cloud 9 n threw me on grd 0.
He apparently is dating some chick name Sapna. I got nth against her so yea.

At first I felt myself drowning in depression.But I felt Almighty giving me strength
frm within. I feel myself rising instead of falling. I can now look pass it like a childish moment. i feel mature n content. Found the missing piece. I guess im ready to know love. Wenever it comes.

But not nw i hope.Im too packed with stuffs. Oh yea.Went on a date with BALA. SO super boring. I rather date my handphone.Karan jus laughed wen i tol him how it went. He said i will neva find the ryt guy.Cos he is the one.
Rite..rite..Loser!!!

Pending dates and so lil tym.I dont gif a shit!!!! I jsu feel free..Oh god..i jus rmbed hehe..my project..

Disillusioned

2007-12-23T05:26:00.000-08:00

I feel like so arghx.My tears cant find a stop jus like my broken heart, which cant find its pieces. I gave Manesh my 100%. Oh well love cant be forced. So i aint gonna bother anymore. I blocked him frm my msn. Im gonna miss him so so so much.
Its gonna stop me frm coming online anymore. Onli reason y i used to come online was becos of him. Hoping n praying he will be online, oh the smile on my face wen he appeard online.Un lamho mein zindagi si thi. But he used to pull me down with his random harsh words. Man n i still love him.
He loves kiran alot alot n i dowan to be a distraction. I mean she is evrything he wanted. Its totally a different thing tht he was everything i ever wanted.I finally decided to open my eyes tdy. I ready wished him all the best with kiran. My life's gotta go on.
Its hurting me so much to know tht i wont be able to talk to him again. Cos tht idiot is blocked frm my msn, n tht duffer wont realise tht i blocked him. Which means no msges frm him either.
Man im so gonna miss him.Love you Manesh. Goodbye..

Teaing bad..being teared down..

2007-12-18T04:25:00.000-08:00

He say concentrate on ur studies. Like HELL! is there anything else im doing. Im puttin my heart n soul into wateva i do.For FUCK! sake i dont gif two shit if Kunal kapoor walks ryt in front of me. Cos all i need is the security tht i HAVE HIM!! yes HIm!! I think We all bloody knows hu we r talking abt.HIM!

NO ONE I REPEAT NO BLOODY GUY HAS EVA EVA BROUGHT ME DOWN. AND HE.. YES HIM!... IS ONI SUCCESSFUL BECOS I LET HIM.. Tht Fucking manpreet says why u being so nice to him..jus be urself.. he gotta love u for the way u are. OF ALL THE PPL IN THE WORLD TO ADVICE ME. MANPREET! HAH.. I neva tot a day cld come so bad tht i haf to take advice from a bloody despo..

Wen i tell him i wanna spend tym away frm hm. He taunts me.. Wen i take pictures.. he says i deliberately act cute. Guess wat MR. KUNAL KAPOOR LOOK ALIKE YOU GOTTA KNOW THT THIS BABE THT IS heads ova heels FOR u ISNT acting cute. SHE IS CUTE BY DEFAULT. You cant accept the fact den too bad, its ur lost.

Wen im enthusiastic abt smth he cant seem to be bothered. Seriously i feel like shaking him upside down and asking him "WATS WRONG WITH YOU!!!!"

I tried hating him but i cldnt..

2007-12-07T00:23:00.000-08:00

My head feels more n more jumbled up by the day. Thanks to mom. She says she wanna a fixed answer of whether i approved of Manesh or not.So she can tok to his mom. How do i gif her a fix answer. I myself m so jumbled up. Haiz. Im so scared n embarassed to ask him. I wrote it here. Yet he had prob accessing it. Its so isnt my fault. But somehow someone is making me pay for it.

Its his birthday tdy, i stayed up till 12 so to send him this really sweet msg.Basic manner is to reply to it. Y shld he? Find it kinda rude cos till date every1 i wish replied back. Yet i din feel bad abt it. I wonder y. Maybe this was wat manpreet was tryna explain to me. Y she din feel bad wen karan bitched abt.

He went out tdy with some gal. YES!! I know. Well at least i managed to ask him wat was the gender of the person he went out with. Felt akward asking truthfully. Jus wanted to ask 1 more qn. "DO u love her?" but i cldnt bring myself to. For 2 Bloody reason..haiz..

I dono y i feel so nervous toking to him nowadays. Chinu laughed at me wen i said tht."WAT U N NERVOUS WEN TALKING TO A GUY!!! Are u sure im speaking to annu?" SoMehow i know how to help others but wen it comes to myself im jus so lost at wat to do.

I went to watch Aaja nachle with manpreet. Kunal Kapoor reminded so much of him. Manpreet kept sayin Kunal looks bad. But i was on the other side of the world. Replacing myself as Konkona Sen and Him with Kunal.Well I now kinda snapped out of it.

Gathering at Jas's

2007-12-04T00:57:00.000-08:00

Jas's parents werent even out of country and we already started partyin at her place. Pinkie picked me up abt at 8.Cool Huh..she's oni 19 n she got her license ready..Arrive jas place.. I was super anxious to watch the engagement. Cldnt wait to see how i performed. Kp, Jasdep, Pinkie, Jas n me.Oni Shareen was missin frm the pic.But Jas said shareen has watched it many many tym so lets not waste tym.I was hoping tht Shareen can make it in tym for at least the performance part.

BOO!! Shareen was there. With Pizzas. Her way of apologizing for being late.hahax.
Wow guess hu of all peeps said i danced the best.The dancing queen shareen. I felt so honoured. But Kp always knows rub it in. By saying u wld haf done beta if u werent looking down most of the tym.

I was seriously wondering wat was wrong with Kp ytd. He was giving me so much of attention.
NO doubt i liked it since he was a infactuation. But now i kinda grew out of it. All i feel for him is oni frenship. Even Jas cldnt see he was so enthu abt me. She started teasing me. Tht's wen i decided tht its abt tym i left. And of course the way he usually reacts wen i say im leaving. WHY ARE YOU LEAVING SO EARLY.. N he kept calling me spoiler. For leaving early. I cldnt care less.

I kinda think tht jasvyn tol jasmin abt ytd.Tht's the reason y she left me a cheeky funwall post.
Madness..Haha..I cldnt care less now.. Cos im seriously in LoVe this tym.. Waiting in agony.. For friday night to come...

2007-12-02T22:27:00.000-08:00

Weee!! Ytd was Vatsal's Bday so Mami Ji Decided to gif the whole family a treat.Cool Huh..

The sucker part was tht i was feelin good at all.But I din wanna spoil the day for vatsal.So I went along.Check out Some Shots taken while munchin..

Haha..I n my sis got our smiley bones tickling!!!

We got sick of our Pretty smileys pics so We dicided it was time for our Annu n Nutan's snap shots moment..

Its hard o own a blog!!

2007-11-27T20:08:00.000-08:00

Hey!! I kinda forgot i owned a blog.Thnx for the reminder Nasreen!!!Yeana Rascala..Mind it..Haha.Went to watch Om shanti Om with Faz at Yishun GV. -.-
I arguedwith her at the fact tht i rather watch it Jade.Its so much beta.Plus they got intervals.Movie was awesome.AND DEEPIKA IS HOT HOT HOT!!! She is my idol.OMG!!

Skool is becoming nightmare by the moment.Alr got 3 warning letter.haix.
Got to catch up.Soon!!

And now to report things tht has kept me up all nite.Many nights.Yea u know the mirch masala is here.Wooo Spicy.

1. How do i get back at fucktup Maurice
2. How to tell Manesh That my mom wants to get my marriage fix to him.Man!!! Its too embarassing!!!!
3.How to tell my Mom tht Manesh is my fren.N it feels wierd thinkin abt marryin him.
4.I wish i can tok to my Manesh regarding this before i let my mom change my life into a living Hell.

Bhagwan Kuch karo!! At least shed some kinda sign.Now for the itzy bitzy parts of Annu's life. Annu has stopped fasting thursdays.Yea i can hear Faz saying "PHEW!!!"
Greatly dissapointed by Vinu.I thought she and i were suppose to plan for whole competition thingy.But she cant seem to be bothered.Leaving me to do EVERYTHING!! Lucky I got support frm KP himself and Priyanka.SO now im finally set.

Well the dance comes aft the farewell party we are organising for Jas N Shareen.Its Kp idea but he has left everything to me.N im blanked out.I dono wat food to make for the party. Help Pls!!! Give me some ideas pals.Haha..Till then DIL MEY MERE HAI DARD-E-DISCO!!!

Back to skoool..-.-

2007-10-14T20:35:00.000-07:00

Hey im back aft a long while now..Holidays over n dreadfully back to skool.Im not tooo sure if im prepared.DMD still as same n boring yea..
Good news is tat i haf successfully not fallen for anyone seriously..Not really into love..Becos i dont believe in it.hahaha..
Life's so crammed up with skool, dance n work.I dont even haf tym to slp properly.Last dance was over on sep16.N now prac n begun for performance on 24 nov.Waiting in line is holi performance which i will haf to begin once the show on 24 nov is over.Gotta begin early to put up a gd competition innit.N aft that the dance for kiran's wedding.Arghx.. So crammed with dance n work n studies.I hope i dont lose my focus.
I got a BIG financial crisis here. oh gosh i wish some one cld help.Gotta put my life back on track.

Oh yay its over..hu m i kiddin..

2007-09-19T06:23:00.000-07:00

Dance pracice has finally came to he end..I tot i wld be so relieved wen its over.I was like oh yay its over aft the performance.No need to stand Jasmin's bullshit n soni n suman's gossips.But now i feel like Shit its over!!! Tears were trickling down my cheeks.

Aft the performance. Kp, soni, suman n me..We all started drinking.Kp warned me not to drag but i did.Oh well i got high.So he spent half the tym making me dance. N entertainin the sober in me.But all was well..Irriating jasmin use to flash me the "i know u like kp"looks.So i flashed her the "ur irritating" look.

I din know that very night i wld fall 4 kp.YES!! I did. He was sooooo understanding.He kept bringing me water so i wont feel high. Aft that he waited till its was my bday n wished by kissin my forehead.He said i will buy u few shots this sat.I tol him im scared.He said dont worry i wld tc of u.THAT LINE.Gosh!! i fall 4 him tat very instant. Recalling it is making me cry.Sobs.

I think im in love.somebody help me.Pls..I think im in love.. I cant wait to see him..

Oh well..Its over..

2007-09-06T06:52:00.000-07:00

Aug 9!!I finally said yes to mannu..aft rejecting him the first 2 tyms.He jus wouldnt listen.I tol him WE wont last. Its pointless gg on. Cause Im doomed to arrange marriage which means gettin into a relationship would be like breaking ma heart myself. He started qn-ing ma happiness. He said we may haf a future. Jus gif us a chance. So i did. I gave US a chance. US became He n I aft a few weeks. Yes It din last..Oh boy..

He promised he wld marry me n stuff..He even intro me to his mom(reluctantly thou), i asked him aren't we gg too fast.Which guy wld jus chance his whole life infront of a gal he met a few weeks ago. I found it all so fishy. Like there is smth happenin behind me. Smth tat i shld know so bad. I tol him. I din feel ryte about this relationship. He said "Chill, cos this is jus ur first tym in a relationship. Its normal to feel this way".Oh Brother..All he eva tot abt was making out. Eeeyer. 2 weeks later, he says he need help in making his frenster,n to come ova to HIS PLACE!! MAN!! He tried to be funy yea..So i pasted one on his cheeks. A hard solid one. Which i dont think he will eva forget. That brought him back to line. No one messes with me.NO ONE!!

I initiated the break up. So he said ok. Aft a while he called me. Explained himself. He said its Normal for guy to act tat way in a relationship. Its all part n parcel of a relationship. He asked for a patch back. All i cld do was ask him for tym. I mean i seriously din had a clue wat to do. I wasnt ready, simply. HE SAID HE WLD WAIT.Guess wat Sat nite, Jas n Soni found him wit a really hot n very drunk chick at Al Sheik. Wat happen aft dat I dowana know.

It was Soni who tol me. I was like "But U havent seen ma guy b4 babe". She said Jasvyn has.Which is true. I introduced her to him personally.I asked fer details. She said apparently tat bitch with him was drunk n depressed n telling him her sob stories. Cos they were eavedropping for ma sake. Ma dear Dallings. Aft a while he recognise Jas, cos of the constant eavedroppin n staring,He got worked up n called me. I was slping so i rejected the call. Early mornin I asked Y did u called me at 1 at NITE. He said oh i was missin u. Which wasnt really the point ma frens.

Jas tol Soni Not to tell me. But Soni did. But Both were concerned abt ma well being, in their ponit of view.Jas tot tat if i heard dis i might jus break down n cos of her there might be problems btw me n mannu. But Soni tot i need to get rid of that TOOT ASAP. All he wants is SEX!! SHEEEESH..

Its ova Now. I regretted saying gdbye. But i realized there nth i shld be regrettin abt.Life's all abt moving On. He was wrong n many wld haf said 'i wish i hadnt met him'. But guess wat if i hadnt den how wld i know wats wrong. YOU NEVA WILL KNOW WATS RITE UNTIL U KNOW WATS WTONG.

Wat a day......

2007-07-25T20:20:00.000-07:00

24 july 2007. Wat a horrible day. Happily went skool without anythin.Empty bag. Oni got 1 lesson mah. Hahaz. Helped almost every1 with their presentation. Guess wat there's a pic of me in everyones' slide. See la camwhore sommore. But i kinda felt honoured. Blush blush.

We still had tym to kill bfor phat nite. So tot we amk hub n play pool to kill tym. I was almost flying wen eric agree to come along (to play pool oni thou). Blush blush. On our wat to amk hub, we kinda attracted a psycho. Blahx wat a horrible experience. He started winking at us. At first i tot he was doing it to someone else not us. But as seconds passed by, things got more clearer wen he started throwing flying kisses at us. Lyk sooooo eeeewwwww. Things got outta hand wen he decided to show us more love by chasing us.Aaaaaahhhh. We were runnin fer our lives.Guess who is the fastest runner? LEANDRA!!!!!!! LOL!! But the gd point is we lost the psycho..eeeeewwwww

Oh well so we met eric finally.Went off to play pool.Well a couple on tamilan were tryna hit on me. Gd thing was eric was there to "defend" me.So one blackie approached i backed off so he went away in embarrasement..so another blackie tried his luck..So being a "helpless" gal i tol him im attach TO ERIC!!! Eric's way of agreeing was so fake tat i wish he wldnt haf answered in the 1st place.He was lyk "yea she ma gal" n went back to playing pool.Arghx.. Seriously i felt lyk strangling him. Ooofh..Kya Tewaar hain nawab ke..i tell u..aft playing pool he jus cldnt be bother to entertain us..He jus went back to his stupid songs...It irritated me big tym.. N i went into depression.. I was really in depressed mode..althou aunty n ah mah din accept the fact tat i wanted to cry.So i tot if they dont believe i can cry.Den let it be den.Maybe one day they will learn im oni human we emotions other than happiness in me.

Phat nite..Disaster!!!! I was really expecting to dance baybie but Ooofh kya nakhre hain in kudiyo ki.. ah mah had stomach ache so she cldnt dance n aunty i jus LUB her.. At least she din let me down..thou she cldnt dance, she moved fer ma sake.I jus lub ma homies..Lotsa lub galfrens..Muackz

2007-07-22T23:24:00.000-07:00

Wow!! Its been lyk almost 2 mths since i updated ma blog ey.WooHoo!! Haha but guess wat im back with more spices n stories for u to indulge in..lol..Well Chinu told me i haf changed alot yea..n i felt a slap on ma face cos i realised from his tone tat he meant for the worst. Nevertheless its true.I haf changed alot.I decided i shld stop being soft cos den its easy for bastards lyk paramjit to come n break it.So i changed ma whole outlook to life.THIS WORLD IS A BITCH SO LIVE IN IT YOU GOTTA BE ONE TOO!! Trust me life jus got spicier aft tat.God i started take gd pics of myself.Posted it on friendster.Since tat ma friendster "who viewed me" list has been gatting outta hand. 600+ last mths and this mth is soaring to 800+. Can U BELIEVE It!! Guys beta lookin den param, mind u,haf been wantin to be frens with me.Unlimited msges n countless friend request but im not dumb to accept them all ah.I onli pick the ones tat pleases ma eyes thou.

Well there's this guy alvin sandhu.He happened to fell for me ova msn.N went on proposing n stuff ah.so i tot lets jus play ard abit.So i passed him ma number n stuff.Untill he said tat he wanted to bring me to hotel 81 n romance me.So i got into a horny mood n asked him how will u romance me.When he tol me he wanted to pull ma pants.I was lyk *SNAP* back to myself.I went like "haha oh fer tat i wld onli to do it aft marriage".He said "Cool i wld marry u den".So i tol him nicely tat ma mom believes in arrange marriage n u will be last on her mind.He got worked up n said tat "Oh In tat case i wanna make u preg!! So now will ur mom marry me to u?" Totally freaky..But thnx to sukhi i got outta tat crappy shit.It happened tat "alvin sandhu" has abit of a desperate guy image in his Society.Sheesh.Lyk SO EEEEWWW!!!

Den this guy from malaysia "Narvin".He another one hu think i will marry him n he waiting n hoping as i finish ma studies.Haha.losers =p!! And there's Arvin Ash.A 15 yr ol' guy n jay sean look alike who goes fer older gals(cos they haf more experience).LOL.Gals his age r goin heads ova heels fer him n his lyk doing tat fer me.Makin me feel lyk a princess.And there's jaggu from BDS.Oh well we skipped the whole "I wanna get to noe u" n had sex.I mean "PHONE SEX".Im still a virgin k.

But among this goons i found someone true.Jiska Dil Itna Acha Aur Lagta Hai Kitna Sacha.It mean The One whose heart is good and seems very true.Oh yea ma very first go at describing someone in a romantic way.haha.But its true.Finally found someone i can respect and is worthy of ma respect.I can jus cry wen i think of his innocense.He is 22..studying in NTU. Average looking.Abit plump.But i love his heart.ALOT!!!! If oni i cld spent the rest of ma life with him.

But i realized an evil person lyk me don deserve him.NO!! Onli Tym will tell me wats in package fer me.

Whoohoo IM back..Hahaha..

2007-05-31T19:15:00.000-07:00

Omg!!I din know revenge taste this sweet yea...Its a long tym since i did take revenge..muahaha..decided to become a good gal..for sometym now.But this fucktup world takes advantage of ur kindness, innocense n patience.So yea You Wanna survive on this planet u got to be a bitch (even if ur not)..param tot i was the 'ooh im so weak..hold me or i will be break type of gal'..so he played the games he usually played..lying, tryna be a bigshot..Fucker always faulting his ego..ooh no one can bring paramjit singh down..And his fav dialog," Gals go for me i don go for gals!"..Wat The hell..you gay or wat paramjit singh..Well u tot u cld make a fool out of Annu Rai n get away wit it..sheesh ur mad cos no one messes with a Rai..
Just a harsh remainder 'I HATED PARAMJIT SINGH EVA SINCE THE DAY HE LIED TO ME ABT RASHVIN'S BDAY'..jus to cover up tat lie he lied again..Ooh he made my blood boil lyk many many..i deleted his number of my hp.I said this is wat u get wen u b too nice yea..I felt so lost,confused n ashamed.Tat how cld this bloody fucker jus get away aft lying to ME!! Well Di Made her entry at the rite tym thou..n i thank god many many for tat..cos yea it was den i realised i cannot give up jus lyk tat.I must haf strenght n wisdom to survive in this 'beautiful' world..So guess wat my old ME was back..scheming as eva yea..made Param fall Head over Heels for Di..Made her sound jus sooo gorgeous(she is darn gorgeous by the way) tat she appeared in his wet dreams..eewwuuu..yucks..Moving On..He was dying to set eye on her..he was almost there..untill i stepped in n spoiled all his fantasy for him..Hahahahahh...I win..1-0..yea baybeh..can u believe it if i say he even sang songs while thinking abt Di..ahah..I warned him not to fall soo fast cos My Di is very arrogant n has a habit of bringing ppl down..no one as in NO ONE has been able to bring her down except of course once yea..by chinu..But NO ONE apart frm tat..Param said "no one brings Param down" he also mentioned tat "she will fall for me the moment she set her eye on me"..Such arrogance..It made this whole revenge so fun to play with...Shucks baby..Now u can jus become devdas in her love oh yea... cos Di promised me she will neva eva meet u..ahaa.. but she said u can dream abt her..no worries..SOOOO SAD..boohoo..so yea this revenge thingy..apart frm tat im normal..I thank God many many.. Thanks yea..Aft dis no hanky panky yea..I promise

Keep HoldinG On

2007-05-20T20:10:00.000-07:00

I know there is nth left..but im trying my evry best to pick on evry last hope left..i feel smth towards him..wateva it is..damn y is he toturing me this way...its inhuman..oh god help me god..i hate evry moment of life..such ignorance is not gd..haiz..the best part is no one is there to hear my cry..as i bleed inside...man if onli u wld haf given us a chance..it wld haf been easier...but dude guess wat.. u think u don lack anything rite but i think u do..true love mr param..there wld haf been smth if u wanted..but u left me to die lyk a fish without water...i swear to you..u will come back to me..in a worse condition then i already m...yea..i closing this chapter myself..cos i cant hold on no more..cos if i don close it then my heart hasnt closed itself..im putting the end to this torture..hoping it will fade away.. it will..to you....

You Know How it Goes

2007-05-15T02:31:00.000-07:00

I gave up all hopes ytd..Couldnt believe it wen he called me all of a sudden..'Hey can u be in bugis in half an hour tym'..I dono wher i was heading as in literally..I made it into his arms..haha..He was totally different frm wat i expected..He is such hot cute guy..He made sure the whole was abt me..Onli me!!!...You got beautiful eyes..I love your hair..don eva cut them..he jus went on..to think i was freaking out the whole day thinking wat he will think abt me..
~Sighs~He even sang for me..lyk soooo many countless song..His just the most adorable guy i eva met...

Such Blissful Ignorance

2007-05-14T01:47:00.000-07:00

I was sooo excited tdy..
But it was jus another day for him...
Ppl ard me cld see how nervous i was..
But i guess he wasnt even bothered..
Such blissful ignorance...
One moment i heart was beating
Lyk he was ard there somewhere..
The next moment it was lyk he stabbed it soo badly..
Ma heart felt empty..
Body sooo weak...
Wanted to retaliate but
Baby, Do i really matter to you?!?
Its true wat they say
Neva dream...It doesnt come true..
Such Blissful Ignorance...
I will take it as just another day..
Shucks baby

HeY ShoNa

2007-05-04T00:03:00.001-07:00

Tumhey pata to hoga
Ki mere dil mein kya hain
Chalo kahe dey ti hu
Kabhi nahi jo kaha hai
Tum hi mere har paal mein
Tum aaj mein tum kal mein
~Hey shona,hey shona~
Sari duniya ko chod ke
Meiney chaha hai ek tumhey
Ab isi chah mein
Ab isi raah mein
Zindagi baar mere tum ho na
~Hey Shona, Hey shona~

~Haiz~

2007-05-04T00:03:00.000-07:00

Love: A forbidden fruit for me
Yesh ma punishment wld be losing
Evrything i eva known..
But its Infront of me day n night
Torturing ma evry sight..
I long to taste it
It grows eva more sweeter weneva see it..
I wanna haf the sparkle in ma eyes,
I wanna haf the butterflys in ma stomach,
I wanna feel ma heart go out of control,
I wanna cuddle up in those arms,
I wanna shed some tears on his shoulders,
I wanna break out for once,
Let it all flow lyk a river...

Whats Going On

2007-04-14T04:24:00.000-07:00

I dono wats going on='(
We both had the worst conversation in history ytd..
Argg..im to be blamed..
He wanted to change the subject but i wldnt let him..
i kept crying today.. juz cldnt stop..
He said " I will support u!!"..In wat..
I haf lost wat i wanted..You!!
So wat are u gonna support me in..
He said "its ma fault,shld haf tol ya b4"
For wat!!! I was already in love wit u b4 tat..
He is too good to be true..
He said wats in your heart..
I said isnt it obvious..i meant its YOU!!!
I was wonderin why was he being too good to be true..
He ans it cos it was d most sensible thing to do..
WAT THe HEll!!
God help me..Wats going on...........

~Secret Crush~

2007-04-10T06:12:00.000-07:00

I think about you day after day,
sometimes, I even plan out what I will say.
You have no idea, you have no clue,
just how much I think of you.
I remember the time, I remember the day,
I had no idea what I was going to say.
I remember getting lost while staring into your eyes;
I must have made about a million of sighs.
I hope we could be together some time in my life,
and sometimes at night, I dream I’m your wife.
I love you now and always I hope you can see,
that if you gave our love a chance how happy we’ll be.
I’m going to bed, please be in my dreams,
because in real life you don’t know what this means.
I will never forget you no way, not now,
I know we’ll be together some way and some how!

~SaD~

2007-04-07T22:52:00.001-07:00

He is going back to camp today!!:'(
I dowan him to go cos there is smth i wanna let him no..
This past four days has been a big part of ma life..
I Haf started a journey and the destination is You!!
I know it not gonna be smooth but i haf chosen to walk on this path..
As long as i get to hold ur hand in the end..
I won mind the agony i wld haf to endure..
Cos in The end i wanna be wit YOU!!