Its tht tym of the sem again. Wher im rushing to complete those bloody proj works!! There's GD proj, Vb proj, IAD proj AND TONNES OF REVISION TO DO!!! Oh god. Mein kya karu..
I oso got work and dance. It jus isnt easy. Im pretty sure someone reads this blog although they claim they dont. Rite Manesh Im not a fool!! But its my blog and i wanna say wat i wanna say.. I WISH VANDHANA JUS DIES!!! Bitch.. I wished she din tell me abt this whole dance thingy. Im stuck in it. There's no escape. I cant even scream cos this world is too small. Bitch jus abandoned me n hid behind her mom. WAT A BIATCH!! Sorry Vinnu i cant bring myself to liking u this lifetym.

Haiz..i wish i cld scream. Its way beta den crying silently in my bed and end up with a headache the nxt day.I realized wher my mistakes were n im mending it. A lil too late but eventually i haf opened my eyes to the mass options in life.All i gotta rmb is to be true to myself.Know wat i want and love wat i got. Im not gonna try for manesh anymore. I guess he is realising too.
Considering he notice my absence on msn. For a while i was happy tht he missed me. But leopards cant change their spots overnight ryt? He picked me frm cloud 9 n threw me on grd 0.
He apparently is dating some chick name Sapna. I got nth against her so yea.

At first I felt myself drowning in depression.But I felt Almighty giving me strength
frm within. I feel myself rising instead of falling. I can now look pass it like a childish moment. i feel mature n content. Found the missing piece. I guess im ready to know love. Wenever it comes.

But not nw i hope.Im too packed with stuffs. Oh yea.Went on a date with BALA. SO super boring. I rather date my handphone.Karan jus laughed wen i tol him how it went. He said i will neva find the ryt guy.Cos he is the one.
Rite..rite..Loser!!!

Pending dates and so lil tym.I dont gif a shit!!!! I jsu feel free..Oh god..i jus rmbed hehe..my project..

i ranted @ 7:16 PM

I feel like so arghx.My tears cant find a stop jus like my broken heart, which cant find its pieces. I gave Manesh my 100%. Oh well love cant be forced. So i aint gonna bother anymore. I blocked him frm my msn. Im gonna miss him so so so much.
Its gonna stop me frm coming online anymore. Onli reason y i used to come online was becos of him. Hoping n praying he will be online, oh the smile on my face wen he appeard online.Un lamho mein zindagi si thi. But he used to pull me down with his random harsh words. Man n i still love him.
He loves kiran alot alot n i dowan to be a distraction. I mean she is evrything he wanted. Its totally a different thing tht he was everything i ever wanted.I finally decided to open my eyes tdy. I ready wished him all the best with kiran. My life's gotta go on.
Its hurting me so much to know tht i wont be able to talk to him again. Cos tht idiot is blocked frm my msn, n tht duffer wont realise tht i blocked him. Which means no msges frm him either.
Man im so gonna miss him.Love you Manesh. Goodbye..

i ranted @ 5:26 AM

He say concentrate on ur studies. Like HELL! is there anything else im doing. Im puttin my heart n soul into wateva i do.For FUCK! sake i dont gif two shit if Kunal kapoor walks ryt in front of me. Cos all i need is the security tht i HAVE HIM!! yes HIm!! I think We all bloody knows hu we r talking abt.HIM!

NO ONE I REPEAT NO BLOODY GUY HAS EVA EVA BROUGHT ME DOWN. AND HE.. YES HIM!... IS ONI SUCCESSFUL BECOS I LET HIM.. Tht Fucking manpreet says why u being so nice to him..jus be urself.. he gotta love u for the way u are. OF ALL THE PPL IN THE WORLD TO ADVICE ME. MANPREET! HAH.. I neva tot a day cld come so bad tht i haf to take advice from a bloody despo..

Wen i tell him i wanna spend tym away frm hm. He taunts me.. Wen i take pictures.. he says i deliberately act cute. Guess wat MR. KUNAL KAPOOR LOOK ALIKE YOU GOTTA KNOW THT THIS BABE THT IS heads ova heels FOR u ISNT acting cute. SHE IS CUTE BY DEFAULT. You cant accept the fact den too bad, its ur lost.

Wen im enthusiastic abt smth he cant seem to be bothered. Seriously i feel like shaking him upside down and asking him "WATS WRONG WITH YOU!!!!"

i ranted @ 4:25 AM

My head feels more n more jumbled up by the day. Thanks to mom. She says she wanna a fixed answer of whether i approved of Manesh or not.So she can tok to his mom. How do i gif her a fix answer. I myself m so jumbled up. Haiz. Im so scared n embarassed to ask him. I wrote it here. Yet he had prob accessing it. Its so isnt my fault. But somehow someone is making me pay for it.

Its his birthday tdy, i stayed up till 12 so to send him this really sweet msg.Basic manner is to reply to it. Y shld he? Find it kinda rude cos till date every1 i wish replied back. Yet i din feel bad abt it. I wonder y. Maybe this was wat manpreet was tryna explain to me. Y she din feel bad wen karan bitched abt.

He went out tdy with some gal. YES!! I know. Well at least i managed to ask him wat was the gender of the person he went out with. Felt akward asking truthfully. Jus wanted to ask 1 more qn. "DO u love her?" but i cldnt bring myself to. For 2 Bloody reason..haiz..

I dono y i feel so nervous toking to him nowadays. Chinu laughed at me wen i said tht."WAT U N NERVOUS WEN TALKING TO A GUY!!! Are u sure im speaking to annu?" SoMehow i know how to help others but wen it comes to myself im jus so lost at wat to do.

I went to watch Aaja nachle with manpreet. Kunal Kapoor reminded so much of him. Manpreet kept sayin Kunal looks bad. But i was on the other side of the world. Replacing myself as Konkona Sen and Him with Kunal.Well I now kinda snapped out of it.

i ranted @ 12:23 AM

Jas's parents werent even out of country and we already started partyin at her place. Pinkie picked me up abt at 8.Cool Huh..she's oni 19 n she got her license ready..Arrive jas place.. I was super anxious to watch the engagement. Cldnt wait to see how i performed. Kp, Jasdep, Pinkie, Jas n me.Oni Shareen was missin frm the pic.But Jas said shareen has watched it many many tym so lets not waste tym.I was hoping tht Shareen can make it in tym for at least the performance part.

BOO!! Shareen was there. With Pizzas. Her way of apologizing for being late.hahax.
Wow guess hu of all peeps said i danced the best.The dancing queen shareen. I felt so honoured. But Kp always knows rub it in. By saying u wld haf done beta if u werent looking down most of the tym.

I was seriously wondering wat was wrong with Kp ytd. He was giving me so much of attention.
NO doubt i liked it since he was a infactuation. But now i kinda grew out of it. All i feel for him is oni frenship. Even Jas cldnt see he was so enthu abt me. She started teasing me. Tht's wen i decided tht its abt tym i left. And of course the way he usually reacts wen i say im leaving. WHY ARE YOU LEAVING SO EARLY.. N he kept calling me spoiler. For leaving early. I cldnt care less.

I kinda think tht jasvyn tol jasmin abt ytd.Tht's the reason y she left me a cheeky funwall post.
Madness..Haha..I cldnt care less now.. Cos im seriously in LoVe this tym.. Waiting in agony.. For friday night to come...

i ranted @ 12:57 AM

i ranted @ 10:27 PM

Hey!! I kinda forgot i owned a blog.Thnx for the reminder Nasreen!!!Yeana Rascala..Mind it..Haha.Went to watch Om shanti Om with Faz at Yishun GV. -.-
I arguedwith her at the fact tht i rather watch it Jade.Its so much beta.Plus they got intervals.Movie was awesome.AND DEEPIKA IS HOT HOT HOT!!! She is my idol.OMG!!

Skool is becoming nightmare by the moment.Alr got 3 warning letter.haix.
Got to catch up.Soon!!

And now to report things tht has kept me up all nite.Many nights.Yea u know the mirch masala is here.Wooo Spicy.

1. How do i get back at fucktup Maurice
2. How to tell Manesh That my mom wants to get my marriage fix to him.Man!!! Its too embarassing!!!!
3.How to tell my Mom tht Manesh is my fren.N it feels wierd thinkin abt marryin him.
4.I wish i can tok to my Manesh regarding this before i let my mom change my life into a living Hell.

Bhagwan Kuch karo!! At least shed some kinda sign.Now for the itzy bitzy parts of Annu's life. Annu has stopped fasting thursdays.Yea i can hear Faz saying "PHEW!!!"
Greatly dissapointed by Vinu.I thought she and i were suppose to plan for whole competition thingy.But she cant seem to be bothered.Leaving me to do EVERYTHING!! Lucky I got support frm KP himself and Priyanka.SO now im finally set.

Well the dance comes aft the farewell party we are organising for Jas N Shareen.Its Kp idea but he has left everything to me.N im blanked out.I dono wat food to make for the party. Help Pls!!! Give me some ideas pals.Haha..Till then DIL MEY MERE HAI DARD-E-DISCO!!!

i ranted @ 8:08 PM